shewalks

2008-09-02T21:16:00.001+08:00

okay, I'm here to say goodbye to blogspot.
www.xanga.com/shewalked.

bye.

2008-08-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

i wanna switch to using xanga, and i finally signed up a new account! I decided to tke Valerie's suggestion of using "shewalked" since "shewalk" and "shewalks" aren't available. so yupp, will update my new blog add soon. bye''d

2008-08-26T13:24:00.004+08:00

If you wanna know what I did after prelims, yea, I went to the Zoo. It was very unexpected for me, I tink my clique has very very good lying skills, even surprisingly Charmaine, she was the first one who got me into believing going to Kaywei's house.

A very different experience in the Zoo with friends.

Hahaha, thanks ya'll for planning...

I do appreciate you, in everything that you have done for me, really...

2008-08-10T22:44:00.004+08:00

The China gold medalist in the center, you gotta see her performances, it's awesome!

What am I doing in front of the TV, captivated by every move of the Olympic's participants when my prelim is in a day's time. Omg, of all the events, I love gymnastics the most. China and USA owned the event! The gymnasts' seemed to be able to overcome the force of gravity and stay up in the air and do their triple spins before landing onto the ground in split seconds.

Aa for the female basketball game, Torrens shot in 8 points- 2 consecutive 3 points followed by a swift lay up in merely 5mins! It's really amazing! And she is so hot! If I am a guy, I'll make a "I love Torrens banner" and fly to Beijing right now! hahaha! okay, I'm quite happy that Dao Li came in 3rd for the 100m butterfly event, she kinda boosted Singapore's ego. And my mum finds the US beach volleyball players really hot, hahaha, I kinda agree with her, although they got thrashed by the China team 5-0.

Anyway shall I stay up for the Basketball match later- China vs USA!

Okay YES!

Goodnight friends!

2008-08-04T16:55:00.004+08:00

I'm not going to write nice things, so if you are not in the mood, don't continue...

I am seriously pissed over the stupid freaking arguements! And I have enough of it. It's not as if I don't know who the hell the both of you are. But you know what! You are just plain nincompoop and cowards, and i can't be bothered with you anymore. So stay away. I didn't expect such responses when I decided to stand up for her and confront you. At first, I thought you are just some ignorant lower sec who doesn't know the meaning of respect. But when I got to know who the hell you are, it got me more irritated. It really sucked big time to actually meet someone like you and spend the past 3 years of my life with. You are telling me what I said was unjustified? You, going around, wearing a mask, hiding your true rotten personality, behaving like a hypocrite. If whatever you said was so damn justified, then tell the whole world who you really are and how great the things you said can be. It's not as if I haven't faced enough troubles with school works and exams. I do not appreciate someone like you to annoy me with your nonsense. screw you.

I haven't felt like this for a long time, I don't want to, not when prelims and O'levels are around the corner, but God made people like you, and I can't do anything abt it...

I may be wrong abt you, and I apologise if I am. so f*** off bitch.

now i truly understand why you set certain restrictions....sometimes i wish you are still around...

2008-07-25T23:32:00.004+08:00

Love changes darkness into light and makes the heart take wingless flight, blessed are they who walk in love, they also walk with God above.

"Love bears all things, believes all things, hope all things, endure all things" 1 Corinthians 13:7

God, I hope I can walk my life with you. Trusting you more each day. I admit it can be hard at times, and I loses faith in you.

But Believe, Hope and Endure.

The amount of homeworks given are really killing me.

Racial harmony day!

2008-07-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

All these pictures are taken from Kaywei's blog, so refer to hers for more, yupps, valerie put up yours too!=D

Today's RACIAL HARMONY DAY! We had a great time in school! Besides dressing up in our SIA outfit, 4S set up a booth selling toys donated generously by Mdm Audra and other nice peeps. We walked around and patronised other stalls as well. I bought pretty lot of stuffs, thanks to Yanting and Merri who provided excellent services, RIGHT? hahaha. I bought this exclusive calendar thingy filled with inspiring bible verses, It's really nice! I swept all the nice stuffs in 4A's stall, feeling really satisfied! But that left me with an empty pocket for our outing later. Anyway, we headed down to PS and catched DARK KNIGHT, It's an exellent show, I give 5.1 stars! The best part of the movie is ( do not read if you haven't watch the movie) when bat man first caught the Joker and you think the movie is gonna end, when it's not!and the joker made an escape. I thought bat man look rather hot! And I think Joker is really scary, I was googling for a nice shot of bat man but came across many pictures of Joker instead, I'm quite grossed out by the scars on his lips, it really freaks me out, eeeeeeeee..I'm gonnna have nightmare tonight.

PS: Cherie, thanks for lending me your suite, I feel really bad actually.

Friends! I won't forget our run in the rain today! What an experience!

Goodbye beauties.

2008-07-20T22:09:00.001+08:00

I lost my I pod. Screw the idiot who doesn't wanna return it to me.

I get it, anyway the way you say it kinda hurts you know.

Life seems to be going not right.

2008-07-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

Mr Sanny called me "dear"! Omg! Can you believe it, i feel so HAPPY!

Hope everything turn out fine for you friend=D

okay, im going back to do my CE project before Valerie and Joyce come running after me! hehehe!

goodbye beauties of the the world!

2008-07-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

There isn't much that I can hold on you know...

You are just telling me it's over and

I give up.

2008-07-11T23:23:00.001+08:00

I love this feeling.

Work work work. OH MAN! This week really left me all tired and drained out. And to make things worse, there's physics extra lessons tomorrow morning. I hate studying on a sat morning. Usually I will bring my brother down for some prata for breakfast, he loves prata. Then I will bring him for a short jog at NYJC. Next I will bath him. And my sat morning will be all blithe and fruitful. But that's not gonna happen tomorrow=(. But it's okay.

The weird thing is, I would still choose to go to school if I have a choice.

My friends make my world go round.

you too.

2008-07-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

Why am i doing this? Oh god, who am I kidding?

Its not possible, going back is not possible...

2008-07-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

Basketballers!
Ms Lim is awesome!=D

Went for lunch with Kaywei.

Anyway, I really respect LOW kaywei's courage. She made a fabulous attempt to 'perform' with her POMMPY hair on stage which i wanted to give a standing ovation for. Even I won't have the courage to stand in front of the whole school and do that!=D good job girrrll! I'm sure our class will win the best individual dress award! 3 cheers to Kaywei. hip hip hurray! hip hip hurray! HIP HIP HURRAY!=D

2008-07-04T18:28:00.015+08:00

Yuan Qi's retarded specs! =B
BuaMiGua and Joanny!
Mel, with her fancy dress!
Jia ling's class's theme is 'Pirates', so here I stand beside a pirate.
Celine, Jia Qi and Jia Xin! pretty girls=D

So from those photos, you could have concluded that today we didn't wear uniform to school. because......drum roll... BE YOURSELF DAY! The theme for all Cedarians is 'Power Girls', but apparently, it's pretty vague, so we came up with class themes. My class, 4S, has the theme-Retro, so we all dressed like those people living in the 60s.. hahaha! It's such a great experience!=D Even our teachers came in their secondary school uniforms, most wore the Cedar uniform. You'd be suprised, they actually blend in with us! They looked young and cute and those male teachers look ah beng-ish! Like Mr Lim and Mr Ang. Nevertheless, they all looked gorgeous! Shall upload somemore of those pics when people sent it to me. Today's a great day! and and and, Mr sanny smsed me to remind me to bring my notes, awwww..how sweet! hahaha!

OKAY! thats all for my day! Hope you had a great day too! BYE!=D

2008-06-28T19:28:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday my dear cheongnnnie! I love you LOTSA! muaackss...

Kaywei came to church today. It was great lot of fun. We laughed, screamed, and pasted papers on Tian En's hands and feets...hahaha! Mock tests was really demoralising, but was all forgotten all at once in church. Thank you for everyone for organising! Tomorrow is Sunday School class outing, I can't wait! It's gonna be a FULL class outing, never in history have we had a full class outing. I went to Valerie's recommended Amanda's Backery and bought cupcakes for our celebration

tomorrow. Look forward babees(guys and girls)!=D

Zai Jian.

2008-06-24T12:52:00.000+08:00

'So yesterday' by Hilary Duff

If it's over, let it go and

Come tomorrow it will seem

So yesterday, so yesterday

I'm just a bird that's already flown away

Laugh it off let it go and

When you wake up it will seem

So yesterday, so yesterday

Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay

You can say you're bored - if you wanna

You can act real tough - if you wanna

You can say you're torn

But I've heard enough

Thank you... you made my mind up for me

When you started to ignore me

Do you see a single tear

It isn't gonna happen here

At least not today, not today, not today'cause

I trusted you so much, yet you lied to me over and over again...

Okay anyway! Today's the first day of school for both my bother and me! I went to fetch my dear brother, he's kinda weird, he fell into silence on our way home from his school.

Ohoh! I asked him.

"do you like anymore girl in your class?"

He replied " a lot of girls played with him today"

"why ah? is it because you are very handsome?"

He said "yah"

I giggled. Okay! I will check out any pretty potential girlfriend for my brother tomorrow! hahaha! That'll be FUN!

Argghhh... I owed tonnes of holiday hw, and it's killing me!

2008-06-20T23:08:00.001+08:00

At some point of time I didn't even realise Kaywei was taking these pictures, hahaha!
Sherman made this for us! Sooo.. nice=D
So sweet of you, jelly!=D

Went to study with Kay wei and Jelly today. Jelly is soooo generous today(unlike usual)! He gave us 5 dollars pupular voucher that me and kaywei used to purchase pen refills and magazines! Thanks jelly! Bumped into Wen rui, Yan rui and Jacinda in J8, it's such a small world, a while ago we were still talking abt them and the next we saw them. OH Wells, the best part IS... we met 2 HOTTIE! They are freaking muscular that made us infer that they're probably from water polo. And thanks to Kay wei who exclaimes LOUDLY "he's so hot!" and our faces all flushed down the toilet bow. The short and not very hot one actually looked over at US! And it was soooo embarrasing, he actually thought that we were refering to him when we are refering to his friend. That's all for an exciting, embarrassing, fun-filled day with the 2 peeps.

Good Night!

2008-06-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

Basketball is LOVE. Time passes so fast, without even knowing, 3 plus years of training is over, and we have graduated from bball.
It's more than just a CCA, definitely...

2008-06-16T22:08:00.004+08:00

This was taken like 2 plus years ago! Joanne and I went for a morning walk=D. I love you!

Mel and me. Retarded.

Isn't that what friends are for.

"I don't know about everything".

We all have our share of heart aches.

Goodbye.

2008-06-14T20:36:00.002+08:00

I like myself like that. I like my class like that. I think my class likes me better this way. I can do it=D

2008-06-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

I am really sorry about all the things I do and say. I need to get back to my real self, which isn't what I am now. I will apologise to you personally.

Put a full stop to my current life.

2008-06-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

I changed, did I? But whatever you wanna say, I really enjoyed being friends with them and i won't not talk to them just because of what people like you, who totally don't worth my time, say about me. I am sure this is all that i get for scolding her right in front of the class. I thought you hated her, so now i know, I am the one you really hate. I can't believe this, I am so disappointed, I thought our friendship is true. I never not like you because of what my friends say, but now I know what kind of person you really are, backstabber.

I hate to admit it, but you are what I would call friend. It's all too late now...

And as for the second you, I didn't know you are that vicious. Don't you ever let those words of yours go through your brains first before you spit it out? Don't you know there would be a consquence to what you say? Tell me right in front of my face if you really hate me that much. I really can't be bothered with a childish, outcasted, egoistic freak like you! Its really sad that you don't know how much people hates you and you still thinks that many adores you. Dream on man!

Maybe i need a change too...

2008-06-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

I really love this picture! The tiger looks gorgeous!
We are riding on seals...wheee!
Common, dont be shy dong dong! okok, let me prove that he's not a shy boy. My brother is a flirtatious and pervetic little idiot like any other guy in this world, hee! See below=)
Dong Dong " I think this ducky(ok i seriously can't rmb the name of this retarded looking animal) is cute and pretty! And she is looking at me!

Me "how do you know its a female, and SHE is NOT looking at you, you are looking at HER!"

Dong Dong" jie jie can I kiss her?"

Me" yeah, go ahead and kiss the glass, as if she will ever like you anyway"

And the next moment..........."muack muack muack muack muack". Godness! I shouldn't have said that!

Zoo is really FUN! I love it! I spent a day out with my mum and bro at the zoo! And i totally enjoyed myself! I am really sorry that I couldn't visit Shawn, hope you recover soon=D. We really miss having you around in church.

2008-06-07T19:00:00.007+08:00

Sigghh... PSL exco hand over on Monday=( I'm gonna miss everyone

Yesterday was great at east coast! Pleeaase go to kay wei's blog for the pics! I don't have them, my old biang phone don't even have a memory card, not to mention uploading pictures onto my com. Anyway, I wanna apologise for yesterday, I think I contributed to not making it a perfect day as it should be. So yea, please don't be angry if u still are:).

I always thought that only Val, Kaywei and Joyce reads my blog so it's rather freaky to know there are others.But they are the ones who make you wanna blog more isn't it?

HI Boss!

Holiday Homework!

2008-06-05T18:09:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps! Okay, Kaywei just reminded me that we are suppose to spurrr.... each ooonn during our holidays on our revisions! SO all those people reading this; have you done your holiday homework? Have you even started! So if you haven't WHY?! Is it because your dog ate up your homework?(there's this guy in my primary school who always use this as an excuse whenever he forgets to bring his hw, haha) If it is, I forgive you, if it isn't I won't forgive you. If I don't forgive you, I won't go Tau Hueying with you ever again, or... for ppl who don't go tau hueying, I will punch you in the face when I see you, hahaha, just joking=B.

Okay, a little update on my revision, er...I followed my time table on the day after I made my time table, which is last monday, after that........heh, I slacked erm..but just a little. I think anyone seeing me soon should try punching my face, or pour cold water on me and slap me three times(like what Kaywei suggested on my taggie).

Anyway, I wanna pray for those people going for Church Camp. I pray for journey mercies, that they will arrive and return safely. Also, Enjoy yourself and have a fruitful walk with God! I will miss you peeepples! And update me on the camp when you'all are back k! Loves<3!

Oh, guess what happened yesterday? I was trying to multi-task yesterday, trimming my eyebrow(with a shaver) and talking on the phone at the same time. Annd 'da da', I shaved off half of my eyebrow, now it's shortened by 50%. I am so glad there isn't church this week, or I really donno how to face everyone. Joyce, please bring your eyebrow pencil tmw to draw me a fake one, orrr.. I'll have to hide in my turtle shell for the rest of my life until my eyebrows grow back...

Hao yee's message is ultimately swweet, thank you babe!=D oh, and pleaase help me with the titles thingy=D

2008-06-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

I realise my posts can't add titles. Hao yee, help! Hahaha! She helped me with everything on this blog, from blogskin to tagboard! thanks dearrie! Today is generally a boring day. Everyday is. I miss school. I miss my girlfriends. I miss hanging out at Mr Tau Huey shop. I miss Mdm LUM! I miss not being at home and mug. Went on a shopping spree with my mum in the afternoon, pretty boring.

Anyway, Tjc's bball training was really fun yesterday! I just found out that most of the bballers there are the graduated J2s, and their J1 team only consists of 4 players. I thought bballing is a really funky sport, why no one wanna join? hahaha, pretty sad! I mean I would rather join basketball than cricket or maybe swimming or soccer or rugby. I didn't know I miss trgn with my teammates that much. Whenever Ms Ang group me with the Tjc ppl, there's just no 'chemistry', no team work, I couldn't perform at all, it's like a chore to play. But when I'm on court with my own teammates, bball becomes so much of a joy once again=D. I love you Grace, Ann and Ng Teng (although she didn't play because she injured her toe, but she cheered us on). Maybe that's what you get after 4 years of trgns together. I didn't feel it then, why do I only feel it now...

Why does it keep raining nowadays? Ohhh... Mr Weather, please don't be emo, because you make me emo too...

I don't want to miss you, I don't want to feel hurt.

I'm not looking forward to the "ding" sound of my message tone anymore, I don't want to know why...

2008-06-03T12:55:00.001+08:00

"And where the hell did you disappear to for 2 weeks? Or you just can't be bothered with me? I don't care what the dickless fren of yours say. I wanna know why you don't talk to me.. Why don you just tell me that you hate me and i won't bother talking to you for the rest of your life?"

"I dont hate you. Just that talking to anyone now just reminds me of pat. Thats all"

Every time when you reply calmly to my harsh scoldings just made me fall in love with you once again. Don't you know it?

So you still love her after all. All those times when you told me you can't be bothered by her and her boyfriend, I thought you've forgotten her. I thought I could make you happier, but I was wrong. I can never replace her. I thought i would never lose to her, I hate losing, esp. when it comes to you. In the end i still did, not to her, but to love.

"I'm sorry...".

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked outta my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave me here with these tears

Come and kiss this pain away

I can't forget the day you left

Time is so unkind

And life is so cruel without you here beside me

2008-06-02T18:46:00.001+08:00

I went for tuition just now, and guess what, i came back one hour later. BECAUSE there isn't tuition today!hmmph!=( Mavis is still enjoying having holiday. Like wth! Mr Sanny said holiday was only last week. And i called the lady and she told me today is the last day of their holiday. I mean who ends holiday on a Monday! What a great service they provide! But still, I'll continue going for tuition for my Mr Sanny! hahahha=D English tuition will be 2 times a week, instead of the usual 1/week from next week onwards until O'levels, that means i can see Mr Sanny more often! YAY! He really brighten up my day whenever I go for tuition! He's just TOO funny! Okay! I thought 'some people' wanna come and see how Pro my Mr Sanny is at making people laugh? What happened, how come no one wants to come for the trial session anymore? I give 5 popcorns to Mr Sanny's english tuition! So don't hesitate to join, I'm the only Cedarian there, it's rather pathetic. But who cares=D
I'm going TJC for bball trial again tomorrow. I am looking forward to it somehow. Why?

2008-05-29T16:09:00.007+08:00

I wanna see the world with you...

Jiao Lian called me to ask me to consider going NYJC, man! I can't say no to him. How many times have he actually called his players! Hardly! Dear dearer dearest Jiao Lian, one of the most respected person in my life, i really want to be trained by him. I won't mind going for training 4 times a week for him. He's best I've ever had. Are you not? DSA really makes me feel insecure, wondering if the promise is really a promise of action or merely words. I really hope everything will go smoothly.

Went tau hueying after extra lesson. ASSHOLE! stop avoiding me!

Joyce and Kaywei really made my day. It just takes these few words you know. Sometimes, I can't help but to wonder if I had regretted doing all those stuffs to you. If I hadn't, would you still be my best friend? Would I still go to you in times of my deepest troubles?

I GOT IN!

2008-05-29T16:09:00.005+08:00

Went for TJC basketball trials today. I got the offer. The teacher promised to secure a place for me in TJ, and in return, i have to promise not to go for other JC's basketball trials, which i intended to earlier. In my whole entire life, I have never imagined myself going to TJC. I have always wanted to go to Hwa Chong, admiring their culture and school spirit, besides Jiao Lian coaches the boys team their, so i can see Jiao Lian. But look at my results, i think i can never make it. And even if i DSA, I'll most probably be rejected, most of their DSA intakes are Youth Team players, people like Clara, I am no where near. I bet once they see my results, F9 for both sciences, they'll probably faint.

I really liked the teacher in charge of bball in TJ, she's really friendly and nice, and the coach is really funnAY! hahaha! And for the basketball players, ask me abt it. God!

Anyway, I am really grateful to some people who helped me along the way and encouraged me throughout the preparation! Okay here you go...

Kaywei- she didnt sleep for "the entire night" just to help me with my tesimonials, and she wrote so flatteringly well!

Valerie and Aiswarya- also helped me with the testimonals, althought i told them so last minute, the still managed to write for me. And Valerie helped me to print out my portfolio.

Evelyn- she really encourages me to try even i wanted to give up( i had super low self-confidence after my mid years) and it was her who tried to pull me up.

Joyce, Cherie, Xiao Jun- thanks for messaging me and your countless prayer really helped.

Grace and my other teammates- they were so supportive, and we really impressed the coach with our team work. Good Job Cedar Bballers!=D

Ying Min(my primary school friend)- i used up almost half of her printer ink to print my portfolio and certs for the DSA. She's really kind.

Elsia, Hui Xin, Xinying, Mayna- if not for them who pushed me to run so fast during cross country, my stamina wouldn't be so sustainable during trial today. I love Elsia and Hui Xin!

My brother- he kissed me!

My mum- prepared breakfast for me!

My dad- not being at home-_-'' thanks so much man....

I realised my up and downs in life revolves around basketball, from Mr Toh to TJC. I have really come a long way. All those time I slaved under the hot sun, panting like a mad dog and still determined to carry on with the drills. Basketball trainings really tested me to the limits, both physically and mentally. It really isn't easy, those trainings, come with no return and recognition. And many of the times, i just feel like swearing at everyone, feel like giving up, feel like quiting, but I didn't, I know I can't. When i was doing my portfolio, I realised in my years in the basketball team, I hardy clinched any awards. But it's worth it after all. More worth it than i thought it's gonna be. There are just so many memories, especially in lower sec, when he's still around, i won't bring it up...

But one thing I'm very sure, my happiest days in cedar are the days when you are around, and i never regretted making my choice to come here, and getting totured by you... in fact it is the best thing so far...

When the Earthquake strucks...

2008-05-15T21:01:00.008+08:00

This Little boy was trapped under the collapsed school, he reached out his hand, hoping for someone to save his life... She is saved, but her parents are buried under the pile of concrete, she is now an orphan...
People's home were destroyed by the earthquake

What are left are just piles of rubbles... all their life and possessions are taken away in these very afternoon...

The earthquake of magnitude 7.8 struck China this Monday, 2.30pm. My mum is just some few hundred kilometers from the epicenter, Thank God she's fine. This few days, I have been taking a break from my brother's rambling about the types of toys he play, instead, he tells me how scary the ground was shaking over at his side. Poor brother! My mum told me my brother was so frightened by the trembles till he cried throughout the night. It must be really bad! I have been keeping up with the news on the situations in China. It's really heart ranching to see pictures of children being trapped under mountains of concrete, refugees roaming along the streets with no food and basic neccessities, their bed are made of newspapers . I realised how fortunate I am. Oh man Oh man! My dad said 72 hours just passed, that mean all those people who are missing and unfound would be dead. It is estimated that 50 000 people would be dead by now. Oh God! Please have mercy on these innocent lives. I really wish I am Tony Blair right now, so that i can design my own 'Iron Man' suit and fly over to China and help these helpless people. Lord, what did they do to deserve this?

Please help these poor innocent people. Pray for them and make donations. That is all we could do i guess....

Mother's Day

2008-05-10T22:21:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is MOTHER'S DAY! <3

Remember to say "I Love You" to your mummy. If you've already been doing so, then say it more than once tomorrow.=D hahaha! I'm making a video and a card for my mummy. But my laptop keep screwing up today, and the window media movie maker keeps not responding, and as i was too lazy to save, i had to do everything again for like 3 times. sooooooo irritating. And since i have to do it again, all my previous nice effects were gone, and i can't remember where i had added them from. Argghh...this is so testing my limited patience! But for my mum, I'll persevere.

Anyway had physics 'motivation lesson' today, I have to say that it helped to some extent. Better than any other those external ones organised by the school. Mr Yao is really a very good physics teacher. Comparable to my dear Mdm Lum i guess. In the afternoon, I had great fun playing basketball in church. Hahaha, the uncle whom i met while i was P5 was also there with us today, how coincidental! He was the first person who played match with me when i was still in primary school. I thought he was some Cheekopeh then! hahahah! Think of it now, I was so stupid. Much fats are burned out today. I'm happy!=D

You said I "dao" you. Goodness! I've been blaming myself for not daoing you since the first time we met. So that I won't have to endure 3 years of shit.

Today.

2008-05-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

when darkness turns to light...

Cherie and I headed down for Bishan Library today. Valerie joined us later. We had lots of fun making mother's day card! I am so jealous of both of their artistic talents. I wish I had them too. We left at around 5 plus cos valerie needs to fetch her mum from the airport( I hope my turn will come soon) while I was going to have tuition with me dear Mr Sanny=B.

I let Amalina listened to the podcast after tuition, she laughed her jaws out! hahahaha! It's really damn funny, right girlfriends? hahaha! We listened it in class today, and all of us laughed till we almost cried. Yessss..it's that funny!=D

Called my mum just now. She's super encouraging, unlike her usual self. She always nags at me to study, and scolds me whenever i told her i did badly for my exams. But today, she kept encouraging me and ask me not to give up. Oh well, I really want to go Hwa Chong, but look at my current results for mid years, I can merely make it to Nanyang JC. Maybe I will consider their offer for DSA after all.

Life is life...

deep down

2008-05-08T22:38:00.005+08:00

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

In the morning, went for some NIE test in school. Came home and watched a movie. Supposed to go play bball with Ian at SengKang, but later I realised that I left my Ezlink card in school, so can't take MRT. so i decide to go to Esther's house for early dinner and stayed with her till 9. We did lots of talking. I'm so jealous of her sometimes, she is one of a lucky girl. You just can't imagine how much her ex-boyfriend is willing to sacrifice for her just to earn back her trust and love. I read the message that he sent over while at her house. I really salute her boyfriend. I don't think any guy nowadays will actually promise and say such things. He even went through all the trouble just to get permission from his parents and stuff, just to be with her again. How sweet is that! I'm dead envious.

PS: sorry girlfriends, i can't seem to upload the Muttons podcast=( I will try again some other days k? Or i can load it in my ipod and let you listen=D. byebye! loves.

2008-05-07T22:13:00.001+08:00

Did some shopping with Valerie and Kay Wei today!=D I finally managed to buy Esther's birthday present, yay! Then had data logger thingy in school. Went home and watched 'Riding alone for thousands of miles', it's a brilliant show! You should really watch it! It is the most touching movie I've ever watched, i was crying and crying and crying. And I mean those loud ones, with sound! hahaha! Then went to Esther's house for dinner. She tried the shoe that I bought for her and smiled at me. It fits her perfectly! Now i see the joy in giving. I've never felt so happy giving presents to people. Esther really made my day! =B Now i really yearn for fish head beehoon. Who wants to go with me for lunch tomorrow?=)

I feel too free nowadays, having post exam withdrawal syndrome. haha. Okay Joel! I'm on for prawning! Prawning is really fun!( only if the uncle is there to give away free prawns).

My stupid cell leader is over reacting here...hahaha. Yes Joel, We all know you caught the biggest prawn=D

Actually, Stanley was the one who caught the biggest prawn after all!

We are all prawning champions! YAY!

Arrgghh... Joel, lets go prawning again! I can't wait!=D

I quit.

2008-05-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

Life without my mum and brother really sucks like shit. And even when you finally talked to me after all these years, it’s as if I don’t know you anymore. When I talk to you, it’s just so different. And it’s as if I don’t know you at all. I don’t know, I’m getting quite emotional nowadays, I guess its PMS. I hate it, I hate the feeling. I still care a lot about you and I’m willing to do anything. But you, on the other hand, made me feel... worthless, I don’t know if I’m being sensitive, but I really don’t feel that you give any damn about me at all. Is it true that you are just making use of me, talk to me me whenever you need me and ignore me whenever you don’t? Honestly when I see more of you, I’ll slowly exclude you from my life, sometimes I really hope that I hadn’t known you at all, yet, I can’t stop myself from feeling what I'm feeling now. It’s really strange how this feeling works I know I really can’t depend on you for my troubles, and I don’t think you will actually care about what I’m going through. And like always, you will never be there for me when I need you. You take years to reply. And it’s really hard to figure what’s going through your mind. I was tearing when I was talking to my mum on the phone just now; she finally agreed to come back. But I know that’s not the happy ending. I really can’t take it, I really need them. I guess I seriously need to wake up from my unrealistic idea that I have been having for so many years. This is going no where…
RAYLIA HE RAN! SHUT UP!

I missed the damn target…

2008-04-27T19:10:00.004+08:00

Just gonna trust you this once.

Physics was a disater, just like chem. I was down with a headache due to over-sleeping. I slept for some 10 hours yesterday. Couldn't remember any formula during the exam.

My mum said she's gonna be back by 20th! yay!

2008-04-27T19:10:00.003+08:00

"He gives strength to the weary
and increase the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
-Isaiah 40:29-31

Jelly asked me to read up on this verse in his letter. I find it pretty encouraging so I decided to share it. I really wanna encourage those who are in the midst of their exams to ask the Lord for strength no matter how tough revision gets. 加油 everyone! Everything is gonna be over soooooon... right peeps?=D

can't wait to see you after my exams=D

2008-04-25T23:03:00.004+08:00

here are the beautiful pictures of my beautiful friends in action during ALPHA... =D look closely at Kay Wei's face, it's damn funny=D

now we know... Valerie runs like that..hahha!

there is still this hilarious picture of Joyce, but somehow, i couldnt post it, but don't worry babee! It's on its way to my blog=D

Just got home not long ago.. haven't blogged for quite long, so here i am...

English paper today was a disaster. I did not read the question carefully and wrote totally out of point for my situational writing! Gosh! How can i be so careless! i wrote about my buddy's stay in Singapore instead of my stay in my buddy's home country! argghh! i can't forgive myself..

Had tution in the evening, maths was boring, but english was definitely FUN, as usual, with our dear Mr Sanny, how can English ever be boring! hahaha!=D Clique and mel said they wanna come to my english class for a trial lesson to see my how amusing my Mr Sanny is! hahaha, pretty cool huh, to have 8 cedarians in one class, we will OWN the class! I can't wait for Mid-years to be over, there are already so many things to look forward to...

After tuition passed by the CC, saw Gabriel there, so i decided to play a bit of basketball the distress and lose weight. Haven't played bball for AGES, i realised i missed trainings quite alot...

sighh..if only O'level's over right now...

3 years later...

2008-04-21T16:37:00.002+08:00

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let 'him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
Im wondering why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

maybe the wait was worth it after all...

Watermelon!

2008-04-18T22:45:00.003+08:00

I just got home from tuition, and since I can't eat potato chips and old changkee fried chicken wing, I decided to get myself a watermelon instead, a healthier choice. It's been long since last chose a watermelon all by myself, and watermelons are really hard to chose, you really don't know what's on the inside. When i was young, my auntie used to tell me to tap on the watermelon, if it produces the same sound as when i tap on my uncle's stomach, it's good and sweet...hahaha, believe it or not? Anyway, i used this method, and guess what? My MELON IS SWEET AND NICE! woohoo! I feel a sense of satisfaction! You don't get to lucky all the time=D. God is with me today! 4and half hours of tuition was really exausting, but there's Mr Sanny, who makes my English tuition so enjoyable, i don't mind staying for a few more hours. haha. My Dad's in Batam now, will be back tomorrow, i guess... I really hope so...

I haven't been thinking about you much lately.... 3 years is not easy you know

I've grown

2008-04-13T22:15:00.003+08:00

Not taller. But fatter. This is bothering me so much, i've gain 2kg in merely 3 weeks. And i just found out after i realised that I can't fit into my school skirt. After much thoughts, I've come to the conclusion that it is the Calbee Hot and Spicy potato chips that caused me to gain so much fats. I've been binging alot these few weeks, for a simple reason-to sit still and study for the upcoming mid-years. If you don't know, I can't sit still to do my work quietly for more that 20mins. 20mins is my limit.I have to walk around, go to toilet(not to pee), saunter around... ok, so anyway, I've decided that I'm gonna lose weight by:

1) Stop eating Calbee hot and spicy potato chips

2) Stop buying chicken wings from Old Changkee after tuition.

3) Go for more runs at Macritchie.

4) Listen to Joyce and Valerie to control my diet during recesses

5) Start learning to follow Charmaine's diet(which is damn little, it's like 1/10 of my portion)

6) Do not sleep so much( sometimes i can sleep up to 11 hours)

okay, i guess that's about it, i really really really need to start losing weight before i become as fat as....twice of my mum...

alright, people you must help me k? That's about it, bye...

look at my brother, he has a much better body-shape than me...unfair

Sports Day 2008

2008-04-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

4S-class champion for 2 years
4S relay team!=D

testing testing 1 2 3

2008-04-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

ok, im just trying this out, not sure if its gonna work. okay, wat shall i say? HI EVERYONE! blogger presents to you...RAYLIA'S FIRST EVER BLOG since the day she's born! ok thats all, bye bye!

2008-04-10T04:32:00.000+08:00

i wonder if it all matters after all... i wouldn't have known all these if i have a chance

i really yearn for my parents to come back soooon..